And Now, the Press Release: “New Book Recounts Writer’s Winding Path to a Life of Faith”

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Award-winning writer Richard Cole presents a love story about conversion and the honeymoon of faith in his new memoir, Catholic by Choice: Why I Embraced the Faith, Joined the Church, and Embarked on the Adventure of a Lifetime (Loyola Press, March 2014).

Catholic by Choice looks at Catholic conversion from the point of view of a modern adult convert, telling a relatable story of spiritual discovery, doubt and eventual happiness. Cole tells his story with candor, pointing to the tone of openness set by Pope Francis as his model. The irreverent humor and deep joy found in faith will call to mind a Catholic, male Anne Lamott.

Cole’s story began sixteen years ago when he visited a Benedictine monastery in South Texas for three days of peace, quiet, and uninterrupted reading time. Although an unbeliever at the time, his brief getaway lit a spark of faith that began “an intense, painful, and utterly dazzling” time in which Cole fell in love with God, became a Christian, and joined the Catholic Church.

Cole grew up nominally Protestant with little understanding of Catholicism. As strange an experience as religious feeling was for him, he felt increasingly drawn to the Catholic Church, with an intensity that made him feel like his “heart was going to explode.” The strangeness was part of the attraction, he admits: “Catholicism was my exotic country, and along with everything else, I loved it because it was foreign to me.”

Cole discovered that the hardest thing about becoming a Catholic for him, a recovering alcoholic and introverted poet, would be carrying his faith into the world, “coming out of my nook, and living as a Christian with my wife, kids, and everyone at work.” He writes about the tension his newfound faith caused at home. His wife, a former Catholic immersed in New Age spirituality, was supportive but frustrated by Cole’s lack of respect for her explorations, and the distance his conversion was creating between them. “I wanted both of us to be on a path of discovery, but I wanted her path to be just like mine,” Cole writes.  “Converts want the whole world not only to convert but also to convert the way they have.”

“The Catholic Church and culture understand how unstraight the human heart can be,” Cole writes. “So do other churches, of course, but I felt that Catholic understanding was deeper, if only by the sheer weight of experience.”

Richard Cole is the author of two collections of poetry: The Glass Children and Success Stories. His poetry and prose have been published in The New Yorker, Poetry, The Sun, Hudson Review and Image Journal: Good Letters. He works as a business writer in Austin, TX. Learn more at www.richard-cole.net.

Ashes

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This week, I’ve been thinking of ashes. What they represent. Here’s something I wrote in memory of my father-in-law after helping to scatter his ashes off the coast of Seattle.

Ashes

John Lacher, 1928-2010

 

Heavier than you’d think

if you think of ashes,

a man’s worth

tucked in a box now

passed from one

relation to the next

as we scatter what remains

on Puget Sound, though

“scatter” is too light

a word. These ashes

plunge, I say

plunge into the cold,

clear water, bone chips

and bits that even the straight

blast of the furnace couldn’t finish.

If you had known this man,

even from a distance,

you would have felt

how hard he burned

himself with blindness

and sturdy rage,

with the diligent weight

he carried in love for others.

And if you had loved him,

even from a distance, you

weren’t surprised how the dust

behaved like stars,

the million particles trailing

clouds of milky smoke

like galaxies, as beautiful

and constant as anything else

burning in the sky.

 

 

 

 

Faith Healing

One of the stories in the Bible that means the most to me is John 5: 1-6, the healing at Bethesda.

There is in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda and which is surrounded by five covered colonnades. Here a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed. One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, “Do you want to be healed?”

We don’t always want to be healed. Sometimes being sick is a kind of solution, a retreat from issues we’d rather not confront. Ask any person familiar with self-destruction. Ask me. Of course, asking if we want to be healed sounds like asking if we want to be happy — but even that question is not always a simple one with an obvious answer.

Then there’s the other question: how exactly do we want to be healed? That also can be complicated.  A relative of mine is currently finishing six months of radiation treatments. Recently he wrote to me:

I once visited a group of disabled Mexicans in Calexico. Some had congenital conditions. They had a small faith community of their own and while I was there they prayed for healing. I asked one of them, “How can you pray for healing when your condition will always be the same?” He said,” Christ heals us but in other ways.” In that sense I do believe in faith healing.  As we know, many times we have to adjust ourselves inwardly to the Divine intent.

So do we want to be healed? If so, our way or God’s way? Sometimes the two ways might not be the same. As Richard Rohr once said, God always answers our prayers. He answers our prayers with more God.

 

Good News

As I’ve said in other places, getting published is like being visible and invisible at the same time. Today, March 1st, 2014, is the absolutely, positively official  launch date of my memoir, Catholic by Choice. It’s been a long road. We’ll see where it takes me. I keep in mind the same invisible visibility of any book, and I remember a passage in the memoir where I talk about being a new author:

Then my first book, The Glass Children, was accepted by a university press. When it came out, I expected the traffic in Manhattan to stop, people reading my book on every street corner, millions staying home from work to savor every line. Congratulations would pour in, and the telephone would start ringing constantly as a grateful and astonished world beat a path to my door.

 As it was, the book was reviewed twice, then disappeared from the face of the earth. Like many other less-than-best-selling authors, I wanted to put the cover on milk cartons: “Have You Seen This Book?”

Looking back, I can smile. That book was poetry, and as we all know, nobody reads poetry. (More about that later. I, too, can’t stand it.) Still, I was hoping for more than just a brief eddy in the stream. With this book, I’m also hoping for more but for different reasons. This book is not autobiography; it’s about something larger — good news that I want to share. A memoir  worth reading is not about the person who wrote it.

 

 

 

Why Do You Believe in God?

That’s the elephant-in-the-room question. Huge. Invisible. Usually ignored but too big to be ushered out the door.

As for me, I have three answers to this question.

First, something happened to me at the middle of my life that I can’t explain except in divine terms. I was an unbeliever, but I went to a monastery, found God and joined the Catholic church. I can’t reduce that change to some psychological flip-flop or a mid-life crisis or whatever. It was a radical change unlike anything I’d experienced, and I’d experienced more than a few changes in my life by that point.

Second, the world is more than higgledy-piggledy, to use a term from debates between believers and non-believers. I think I understand the value of that term. In nature, we see complex and organically ordered patterns that seem to emerge from purely random forces, like a river delta that resembles fractal-generated patterns.  But to say that we and the universe are just clusters of molecules bundled together higgledy-piggledy seems a stretch. I believe in evolution. I think of evolution as how God thinks. But in strictly evolutionary terms, we’re wildly over-engineered for mere survival. Higgledy-piggledy can’t explain a Mozart, an Einstein, you, me or a new-born infant. The world is far, far more than it has to be.

Third, lots of other people believe in God, millions and billions of people down through the centuries. This is called the argument by consensus. For me, it’s the strongest argument, even as for certain non-believers it’s the weakest. I don’t think people are stupid. We’re all intellectuals, more or less. Sure, some of us have knacks and talents. A mathematical knack, an intuitive talent. Some of us read more books than others. But I’ve spent too much time sitting in a circle in a church basement somewhere listening to others not to understand that when it comes to the really big questions — Where did we come from? Who are we? Where are we going? — all human beings are pretty much on a level playing field. Millions and billions of us, trying to puzzle things out.

I think of human history, including the history of religion, faith and doubt, as a kind of parallel processing, a vast population of servers added down through time that are all working on the same problem. The sheer size of this server farm can’t be ignored. Yes, we have all collectively come up with an almost infinite number of wrong answers, but I also think we have a collective intelligence greater than any individual insight. 

So that’s what I think about the Big Question. Does it care? It puts another trunkful of hay in its mouth, steadily chewing as it looks at me with those ancient elephant eyes. It still doesn’t leave the room. Maybe it’s waiting for better answers. What do you think?